I am so tired of life. Every day I feel down, so I want freedom from this life. It has no meaning for me. The world is like a machine. I am human, not a machine for making money.
My dear young friend,
From this very short cry for help, I cannot tell why you feel like this, or what you can do about it, but "I am human not machine for making money" speaks to me.
You are looking for meaning and purpose. You want to do something worthwhile with your life, beyond selfishness and pleasure. You can.
I assume you are making money, and that other people are pressuring you to concentrate on materialistic goals, to build a career, to "Succeed" and "Be Somebody." And you are too spiritually developed to place importance on such things. Sure, a comfortable life is good, but what's the point of chasing money without limit?
Of course, I am guessing. But have I guessed right?
If you want meaning and purpose, you need to generate them yourself. You can do so while engaging in your life as it is right now, or you can re-engineer your life to remove the aspects that have driven you to despair.
I imagine that the pressures come from your family. You probably don't want to hurt them, to disappoint them, but wish they would allow you to shape your own life. This is a problem only you can solve. You need to design an approach that leaves loved people reasonably happy, while at the same time allows you to modify your life to become meaningful and focused on the things you find important and worthwhile.
The path to a meaningful life is to be of service to others. You can spend much of your time in being the good son, the good student or worker, and yet have lots of energy for making life better in some way for people facing particular problems, or for your community, or for humanity at large.
You're welcome to email me.
Your new grandfather,